Breathe easier

Today I am breathing easier.  The sting of rejection from this past season doesn’t sting like it once did with every breath. There were days the pain felt unending. On dark days I felt so depressed; I felt I was at my lowest. That’s a big statement because in high school, earlier 20s, I struggled […]

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It’s time to dream again

April 2018 Y’all- it has been a strange season over here. I’m not talking about the weather. I’m talking about the season I’ve been in. Before I even start, I want to say– I write this to share where I am. To share what I think I heard God say, and it’s been eye opening. […]

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Avoiding the mess

I’ve been avoiding writing. I’ve been avoiding facing my feelings. The past five weeks have been….. hmm, words….. well I could be dramatic or I could hush what has felt so dramatic. Dramatic. Two or three months ago, while having quality heart to heart conversation with a girl friend, I stopped mid heart sharing and […]

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When plans change

  Have you ever made a decision on something in your life, but then realize you actually are doing it for the wrong reasons? Have you set your mind on something, “yeah I’m gonna do this thing and go for it!” But then weeks or a month later, the question of why comes in and […]

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A new adventure on the horizon

  Disclaimer: there will be a high number of exclamation marks throughout this post. You’ve been warned. Y’all! I’ve got some exciting news to share!!! Since I received the news I’ve almost had to pinch myself because parts of me are still shocked & surprised (especially at the timing very near my birthday.) A month […]

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Regrets are healthy

I’ve been thinking this AM how I’m still unsettled with last year. I wish I had done some of it differently. I have regrets about not opening up sooner and not pursuing vulnerability more…so on and so forth. There’s things about this year – the several months I wish I’d acted, said, responded differently. So […]

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reflections vs. shadow dwelling

I believe reflection is good. It’s good to take intentional time to see “how I’ve grown since last month, last year…” However I may have a tendency to be dramatic. I may have a tendency to not know healthy boundaries until I’ve reached the edge of healthy & now it’s unhealthy. I have done this […]

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F i v e MONTHS

Today marks five months since I came back into the US of A. A couple days ago marked being back in Redding two months. How is it that coming back into the States feels like it was just yesterday and simultaneously ages ago? One year ago I was about 7,374 miles away from where I […]

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